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I will still await the second arrow
In the wake of the initial
Aching indifference when I’m awake
Still pulled beneath the waves

Who can speak to the extent
The damage death does to the living
I recall before they all were gone
When I could still love my loved ones

I am still afraid we won’t find love
The way we found each other

There is anger rooted deep
For those who speak of grief
With tender tongues and silken teeth
Not knowing a monster lurks beneath
the cast shadows of thought
“A featherweight a gentle teacher”

So many hits to the heart
I’m afraid that I could never love the same
‘Cause I can’t even feel the earth
Beneath my feet
But it seems that it’s cracking
And splintering through me

I’m not whole
I’m just fractures

There is chaos in the dark
I am dragged along the ocean floor
Serrated shards of memories
Sharp and in my skin
Reeds will tangle up my ankles
And now I can’t surface to breathe
The monster pulls me deep
Into everything I avoid
And I can’t look away
I’m in it now
The rest of my life
A motherless daughter

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from Fractures, released January 19, 2021

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